I have been making art. Yes. But also now sleeping until way later than I intend and staying up later as well. That might account for the sleeping later. I have recently read/heard that we should not awake with a to-do list or base our thoughts on worth, self-worth or value on what we have accomplished, made, completed, etc.
Handspun Yarn 
Cotton Batik Mask 
Handspun Yarn 
Crocheted Shawl 
Hand-dyed Sari Silk Yarn 
Knit Handspun Shawl
So I awake today and I think, instead of what will I do today, what projects can I complete, start, devise….Instead, today I think “How would I like to feel today?” And I start a list.
I like lists.
I would like to feel:
- Happy
- Enthusiastic
- Joyful
- Laughter
- immersed in my creating process
- eager
And then I begin to consider where I feel those things most…for me its with math and art, where math and art come together, color and pattern, fractals, iterations, permutations, quilt blocks, weaving patters and all the possible variations within a given set of parameters, grouping yarns with various colors and textures that I want to use together, grouping fibers and wool for carding…..and I get UP. Later than I imagined I would but so be it.
I got up Feeling Good!
Handspun Yarn 
Hand Dyed Roving
And here is the real epiphany. Still somewhat in judgement about the time I finally got out of bed, I texted a friend:
“Still making things. And sleeping. A lot.”
And the reply, simply: “Good.”
And I thought, that’s it? Good?
Huh! And I paused. And I considered maybe it actually is Good. Maybe I needed to sleep as long as I slept and I was honoring my own internal guidance and getting exactly what I needed to start a new day well rested and feeling good.
This thought alone is better for my health and well being than beating myself up!
Why are we so inclined to berate ourselves and disallow getting exactly what we need when we need it.
What if we are doing it perfectly and simply don’t realize it. AND…we can continue to improve and follow what’s our next highest thought. [My typo “Next hightest thought” is actually pretty good!]
What is Your Next High-Test Thought?
